So there’s a mumble jumble of things I need to post about today. So just. bare with me!
The other day, something really hard happened. It wasn’t a very good day for a million reasons. The biggest one was realizing that sometimes, even when I’m doing all I can, people don’t like it. People sometimes don’t like the way I handle things. And when something happened to point that out to me, I was really hurt. The amazing thing though, was after that instance, I discovered this huge safety net I had. I fell backwards, hard. And there was this safety net of loving people to catch me. And some of the people I expected to be there, others I didn’t. But it was wonderful to have all those people there to catch me, and help me get back up. So thank you to that safety net that I have, I will always treasure and love each and every one of you.
Next item of business. A slight vent. There’s this thing called “I’m a Mormon. I know it, I live it, I love it.” Too often lately I see people who are Mormons. Who know it. But they don’t live it. And that is so frustrating to me. I know I’m not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I certainly hope I don’t broadcast my desires to be a rebel and live on the edge as blatantly as some do. It’s just disappointing when you KNOW somebody goes and bears their testimony on Sunday, but on Saturday they were bikini shopping or talking about how much they missed their wild nights of partying and drinking. I know I shouldn’t judge, and I’m really trying not to. Everybody makes mistakes and has imperfections. I just feel like those imperfections and temptations shouldn’t be a license for you to be “cool” or “rebellious.” If you know it, live it. I know that’s what I’m trying to do. Even if sometimes it doesn’t seem like it. It’s just sad that in Mormonville, sometimes it’s “cool” to break the rules or brag about something that isn’t exactly right. I wish it was “cool” to find a really cute one piece swim suit or a really cute modest prom dress. I wish it was “cool” to go see the newest Disney movie 7 times, instead of the newest R rated one. I wish it was “cool” to say how much you’ve always wanted to buy some new shoes instead of get a tattoo. Maybe this is out of place and maybe this will offend someone. That is truly not my intention. I just wish my friends from out of state didn’t have to point out to me how hypocritical Utah Mormons are. And in some ways, they’re very right. And that’s too bad.
End of vent. Cue next item of business! I love my new job. So very much. I pick articles and write headlines on religious freedom for the BYU Religious Freedom and Law Center. It’s the best. I work whenever I want to from home, I get to just sit and read lots of news which I love, and I get to write headlines. It’s the best.
Last item of busy-ness. Some days are harder than others, sometimes bad things happen, sometimes you don’t get what you wanted or needed and that’s hard. But there is ALWAYS light at the end of the tunnel. So, to quote one of my favorite General Authorities Elder Holland: