Not too much to say

This weekend has been crazy busy! And also not busy at the same time now that I think about it!

I got homework done, did laundry, spent some quality time with my amazing friends, and and got to spend some time at the temple and a Relief Society conference, plus having my awesome roomies teach a great lesson today!

Why is she so beautiful?

So maybe I had Maddy/Randy night, eating Japanese ramen and watching “Departures”

Comedy Sports with these cuties:)
Happy Sunday everyone:)

The vague wanderings to cleanse the palate

I’m sorry if my melodramatic stories irritate you, if they do please stop reading now!

There have been too many thoughts bouncing around in my head and I need to get rid of them. So here we go.

I hear the door click behind me and I briskly walk down the stairs. The bottom stair that’s only really half of a stair doesn’t bother me anymore. It doesn’t  bother me like it did the first time I walked into my new home.

The car is parked exactly where it was that first night, when we sat and talked for hours. You told stories and I laughed. That was before everything got confusing, before it was too hard and complicated.

It’s strange to think that three months ago, the set of stairs leading up to you wasn’t well-worn. I didn’t take the stairs two at a time to see you then. And now I do, every day.

The strangest part of it all is you. It’s been too long, but for some reason it’s still ok. Still the most of everything.

When I walk to work, I walk past the past. I can see her watching out the window for him to appear. She’ll see him, and then run back to her room or to the couch, trying to act nonchalant about his coming, but in reality she can’t breathe. She still can’t. Can’t believe you are still perfect.

There are late night talks. But they are serious now. The future is present. And that is terrifying.

Sorry for the vague vulnerability.
Happy Wednesday everyone!

He’s feelin 22

Ok well I am horrible at blogging! But lots of good things have been going on lately. I have been going to school like CRAZY and working hard, but also playing hard when I have time

So here’s a small update!

Ages 8 and under. He fits that description.

Today is this amazing guy’s birthday! He’s 22. Yeah, I know he acts like a 6 year old, but he’s 22! Happy birthday to one of the funniest, sweetest, and nicest people I know. I’m lucky to have a best friend like Drew!

This weekend we’ve gone to Classic Skating and Denny’s with friends, spent the day shopping, eating all you can eat sushi, getting our favorite desserts at our favorite Mexican spot, and then watching Animal Odd Couples on Netflix. I also got to spend some time with my family at the MOA and going to dinner!

So basically it was an amazing weekend! And we still get tomorrow to play! How exciting:)

Speed skating WIZARD.

So if you haven’t gone to see Sacred Gifts at the BYU Museum of Art, shame on you! GO go go go. It’s amazing and it has art that will never be allowed out of Denmark and Germany again! It’s a once in a lifetime opportunity that you shouldn’t pass up!
I hope school is going well! I hope I get better at blogging haha. 
Also, today in church my bishop said something interesting that I loved. He said, “You are the elect of God. Start acting like it!” We are doing an 8 day challenge of being better, more positive and obedient people. He promised us that if we do this for 8 days, the things that we want and need will come to us. It was an amazing Sunday, to say the least! So I hope you’ll do the 8 day challenge too! 
Happy Sunday everyone!

Dear Future Self…

Dear Future Self (approximately one year in the future to be exact):

How are you? I hope the answer to that question is happy. I am happy right now, and I can only hope I find ways to be happy 1 year from now too.
You are beautiful. You have days when you don’t believe that, but you are. The best beauty comes from happiness, hence why I hope you are happy. 
Life throws curve balls. It also throws fast balls, and sometimes even gentle lobs right across the plate. I hope you take a swing at each one, give it your best. Sometimes you’ll strike out. Sometimes, you’ll hit a home run. Either way, it’s the effort you put behind the bat that counts. So keep swinging.
Don’t be afraid to love. It’s the best thing you can give someone. They may not understand that, but you do. So sprinkle around all the capacity in your heart and hopefully it will brighten someone’s day. Don’t be afraid of the risk involved with loving someone. Take the leap. Even if you end up crashing, for a few glorious seconds, you’ll get to fly. And that’s worth any hurt that comes from a fall. And who knows, maybe someone will catch you.
Forgive. Open your heart to letting someone move through their past and become a better person. Allow them that chance. Finding the heart to let someone be new, gives you that same opportunity. 
Promise me that you’ll spend your time pursuing good things, reaching for the best and the brightest star. Don’t ever forget that you CAN achieve anything. 
Never forget that there is a God in Heaven who loves you. 
Me (from one year ago, to be exact)

It’l be worth it, all this time

January 9, 2013.

It was one year ago today that I said goodbye to my best friend. There aren’t words to explain that day, and most of me doesn’t want to relive it.

As hard as this past year has been, it has been good. So very good. I have spent the past year learning, laughing, crying, dating, playing, working, exploring, missing, supporting, helping, and mostly growing. I know more about myself know than I did a year ago. And I think it’s safe to say that Elder Low does too. I can’t say what this next year will bring, but I do know that there’s a boy in Japan who means the world to me, and that he’s doing so many good things there.

People ask me if I regret anything, and the answer is no. Every choice has lead me here, and I’m happy and so is he. People ask me if I would do things differently. I think there are some things I wish were different, but nothing really that I have control over.

Everything happens for a reason. I tell myself that every single day. And I have already found a million reasons why this trial has been a blessing. Not seeing or even really talking to your best friend for 2 years is hard. But in the past year I think I’ve grasped a little more the good things that come.

People are going to form their own opinions, and I can’t do anything about that. I know that I’m happy, Randy is happy, and the past year has been good to both of us. I’m sure this next year will be too.

I don’t know what the future holds. I won’t pretend that I do. I just know that I know Randy will continue to be an awesome missionary, and I’ll continue living my life and loving it.

Maybe in a year we’ll be back to doing Chili’s runs, back to singing while you play the guitar, back to me asking you what outfit to wear, back to you taking out the trash while I cook you dinner, back to parking lot dancing, screaming our favorite songs in the car, frozen hot chocolates, and endless scheming, back to goodnight texts instead of letters, back to calls in between classes, back to long walks, back to shopping, seeing shows, eating dinner, and just enjoying time together. I sure hope so.

Happy 1 year down Elder Low. I couldn’t be more proud of you!


Tonight I’m reflecting. You’ll find out why tomorrow.

School is going so well! It’s hard, but I really like it. I’m delving into broadcasting and it’s everything I wanted it to be.

I have an interview to be an EFY Counselor tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Also, I find I’m not a very nice person when I don’t get enough sleep. So I’ll be working on that.

I also have time to read. It’s blessed. I don’t expect it to last, but for this moment, novels are my good night kiss.

There’s this song that I fell in love with. You say you don’t like Taylor Swift? Guess again. Because you do. She’s so spot on it’s disgusting.
Happy Wednesday everyone!
And Happy Birthday Rebecca darling:)

Friends and family

Today, one of my best friends bore his testimony in Church about friendships. He talked about the friends he was seeing for the first time in years, the ones he left when coming to Utah, and the new friends he’s made here. He talked about how they are like family to him. I, being the cry baby I am, started bawling.

I love my family and I miss them when I’m gone.

But it is so nice to have a Provo family here. People I can rely on to be there for me, to listen to me when I’m upset, to help me whenever I need it, to laugh with me and cry with me, everything. I love where I live and I am so lucky that I decided to move in here. I’m so lucky that I took the classes that I did, that I’ve made the friends that I have, and that those friends have become my family.

If you aren’t pictured above, don’t fret. You are still my friend turned family member. I just don’t want to rummage through every picture;) 
So thanks 2013 for bringing me these great friends, and here’s hoping 2014 keeps the old and brings in some new friends too.
Happy Sunday everyone!
PS–you CAN be friends with an ex. It’s possibly the best thing ever.
PSS–Elder Low gets home in 368 days. Not like I’m counting or anything.

Vague prose

Hello there friends!

I haven’t posted in a few days, because I have done nothing. Haha it’s true! I’ve been at home and then back to Provo, reading and baking and letter writing my days away. It’s been a blast, let me tell you!
But I have to say a few things.
Sometimes people do things to deliberately hurt you. I don’t understand it, maybe they think they’re doing those around you a favor. Maybe they think they’re doing you a favor. Either way, it’s not right. And it’s not helpful. 
So I’m working on forgiving and forgetting. But I’m also not going to be naive. 
Ok enough of the morbid, vague prose. 
On a happy note, I still have two whole days of relaxation before school starts. Count your blessings, am I right? 
Anyway, happy Friday everyone!


It’s 2014. How weird is that?? I remember last New Year’s perfectly. It doesn’t feel like it was that long ago.

So to celebrate the new year, here is a moment from each month of 2013. These will be good, promise:)

January I said goodbye to my best friend. It was a really hard month, but getting those first few letters was the best!

February was filled with school and an awesome Valentine’s Day. The Robed Five made us girls feel so special!

March was filled with trips to the cabin, laughing, studying, and becoming best friends.
April was crazy with finals, saying goodbye to roommates and wardies, and finishing my first year of college!!

May had the best vacation ever with my girls, and moving back home, spending time with my family!
June was full of working, ballet recitals, and a flying trip to Idaho which was way too fun!

July was full of partying, working, and lots of mission farewells!
August I said goodbye to Cherry Hill, and Randy and I hit two years of dating!

September I started my second year at BYU, celebrated my 20th birthday, and said goodbye to Al.

October I made some amazing friends, said goodbye to Lau, got into my major, and worked on Student Alumni, plus got a job for BYU Radio.

November found me busy, busy, busy, with a little time at the end of the month for family and The Nutcracker!

And December was full of finals, Christmas, goodbyes and hellos, missing Randy, and lots of love. 

Yeah it’s safe to say that 2013 was really good to me. It was hard, stressful, and there were lots of tears. But there was also lots of fun, laughter, late night talks, and adventures. I wouldn’t change a thing that happened this year. And I can’t wait for the adventures 2014 will bring. 
All I can say is…
Happy 2014 everyone!