January 9, 2013.
It was one year ago today that I said goodbye to my best friend. There aren’t words to explain that day, and most of me doesn’t want to relive it.
As hard as this past year has been, it has been good. So very good. I have spent the past year learning, laughing, crying, dating, playing, working, exploring, missing, supporting, helping, and mostly growing. I know more about myself know than I did a year ago. And I think it’s safe to say that Elder Low does too. I can’t say what this next year will bring, but I do know that there’s a boy in Japan who means the world to me, and that he’s doing so many good things there.
People ask me if I regret anything, and the answer is no. Every choice has lead me here, and I’m happy and so is he. People ask me if I would do things differently. I think there are some things I wish were different, but nothing really that I have control over.
Everything happens for a reason. I tell myself that every single day. And I have already found a million reasons why this trial has been a blessing. Not seeing or even really talking to your best friend for 2 years is hard. But in the past year I think I’ve grasped a little more the good things that come.
People are going to form their own opinions, and I can’t do anything about that. I know that I’m happy, Randy is happy, and the past year has been good to both of us. I’m sure this next year will be too.
I don’t know what the future holds. I won’t pretend that I do. I just know that I know Randy will continue to be an awesome missionary, and I’ll continue living my life and loving it.
Maybe in a year we’ll be back to doing Chili’s runs, back to singing while you play the guitar, back to me asking you what outfit to wear, back to you taking out the trash while I cook you dinner, back to parking lot dancing, screaming our favorite songs in the car, frozen hot chocolates, and endless scheming, back to goodnight texts instead of letters, back to calls in between classes, back to long walks, back to shopping, seeing shows, eating dinner, and just enjoying time together. I sure hope so.
Happy 1 year down Elder Low. I couldn’t be more proud of you!