For some reason, my emotions are heightened lately. I feel everything more, if that makes sense.

Which means that what you said cut more than it normally would.

Which means missing you hurts more than it normally would.

Which means my temper flares more than it normally would.

Which means I feel the lack of feelings more than I normally would.

And more than I normally would, I like being alone.

There’s this rush of peace in knowing I can be perfectly content by myself. I’m not good at being by myself. I don’t like the fact that I’m getting used to it. I wish I didn’t find solace in being alone. But I do.

More than I normally would.

But I think I know what it is. It’s growing pains. Not in the normal sense, but in the figurative sense. I’m sure, now more than ever, of the direction I need to go. Of the person I need to try to be. And that takes a lot of time, energy, and feeling. It also takes lots of alone.

So please ignore the sappiness of this post. I wouldn’t even post it, but something is nudging me to. Maybe one person who reads this will know the feeling. And relate. And if the other people who read it think I’m crazy, but one person needed it, it’s worth it. Even if that person who needed it was just me.

And if this post is too much for you, never fear. I’m sure by tomorrow I’ll be back to normal:)

Happy Friday everyone!

It’s 100 degrees today. Just let that sink in. It’s 100 degrees today.

Summer. Perfection. Some say “Oh that’s too hot.” And yes, it is too hot. But it’s perfect. I couldn’t put my hands on the steering wheel because it was burning. I work at a waterpark, and it was packed (more on that later…)

So that’s one good thing about today.

So today has also been not so fun. Getting yelled at by angry campers is not ideal. So that’s the downside of working at a campground/waterpark.

Anyway. I haven’t been blogging because I’m a slacker. So here’s a few things worth saying about what’s been up lately.

What a weekend. I don’t even remember what happened haha. But I know it was an interesting one! Full of mom coming home from the hospital, working and dashes to Provo, seeing friends and saying goodbye to friends, and of course my favorite moment of the week, email Sunday.

It’s Rachel s birthday. This is a big day. She’s finally 19 and we can officially begin husband hunting;) She’ll probably kill me for putting that. Oh well:)

Basically I wasn’t sure if Rachel and I were going to get along. Now she’s one of my best friends. One of my Fat Five ladies. I don’t know what I would’ve done last year without her. Or what I would do next year without her. She’s been there with me through so much, and I owe that girl SO much. So much of who I became last year is because of Rachel (the good stuff I mean;))

Another day off work? Yes. This is happening. My mom is getting surgery so my parents are gone at the hospital, I’m off of work playing “mom” for a few days. So we’ll see how that goes….

Meanwhile here’s what’s been up lately. Life according to my iPhone if you will:)

I kid. I know it was Father’s Day, if not because I celebrated with my family, the hundreds of instagram and facebook posts would’ve been a clue;) It was actually really sweet to see everyone talking about their dads and how great they are.

But now I must end the debate. Because my dad is the best.