I haven’t had the energy or desire to blog about news or anything lately. I’ve been finding myself in a strange May rut. Everyone around Kaysville is graduating or going on missions or getting married, all of my college friends are getting married or going on missions or live impossibly far away, and my best friend lives in Japan. So all of these things added together, plus extensive work hours that somehow still leave lots of down time in my day, and unlimited Netflix, have left me in a May rut. I’ve been doing my Grasp the Moment Challenge, which has semi helped, but realistically I’ve got a serious case of the post-collegeitis. It’s that moment when you realize people are going on and doing crazy things with their lives, making huge decisions, and my decisions consist of what I’m going to eat for lunch and if I’m going to wear a red or green shirt to work. I realize I’m probably not alone in my sad state, but I sure feel like I am.

It’s not that I’m bored. I have lots of work, fun time that I spend with my mom, time that I spend with my sisters and dad when they get home, friends to talk to and go out with, books to read, letters to write, but there’s still this sad feeling of “No, I’m not getting married or going on a mission.I actually have no clue what I’m doing with my life.”

So that’s been the past few days.

And then I realized I needed to stop moping, stop feeling sorry for myself, and stop being silly. All of the things that I’m doing are important. A letter from my favorite missionary helped me realize that.

So if you are also suffering from post-collegeitis just remember that life can still be good, what you’re doing is still so important and wonderful, and that there is a plan for YOU. And this time is for you to figure out what that is, and how your decisions play into that.

The only big decision anyone needs to worry about is if they’re becoming who Heavenly Father needs us to become. Right now, me becoming who Heavenly Father needs doesn’t involve a mission or marriage, it involves working at Cherry Hill and BYU, getting ready to apply to my program, spending time with my family and friends, writing my favorite missionary, studying my scriptures and growing closer to Him.

So who are you really becoming?

Happy Saturday everyone!

So I am SO behind on blogging. I am so sorry. I am going to play a big game of catch-up right now so be prepared for a long post!

First of all. Shout out to my home girl LAUREN FABER who is going to SYDNEY AUSTRALIA on her mission, leaving OCTOBER 9TH!!! This girl is one of my best friends and I can’t imagine a more perfect mission for her. I am so lucky to know her, and so lucky that I get to spend time with her. She’s a wonderful person and is going to be an amazing missionary. Go convert those kangaroos Lau, I LOVE YOU!

Ok so once upon a time we went on a road trip. To Idaho. And it was one of the funniest things that has ever happened to me. Here are a few highlights from our trip:)

• Finding Pride Rock, for cows
• Listening to/discussion Les Mis for a good portion of the car ride
• A gas station called the Garden of Eden, complete with giraffe or tiger spandex and enough stuffed snakes to make you wonder which one really was Satan
• 100% boy. Need I say more?
• CAN WE STOP AND GET SOME WINE?
• TYSON THE LANE IS OVER
• Hugging people that I’ve been away from for far too long
• Chick-fil-a twice. In a two day trip
• It’s my pleasure….oh Mindy. 
• Lauren making faces at dogs in the drive through
• The car next to us asking for an Oreo, and us throwing them one
• The VERY friendly people at the stores we went to
• Garrett. Seriously the cutest kid EVER
• Josh at Lucky Fin trying to get fired 
• The greatest buser EVER named Rachel
• Wondering if Rachel really worked as a mermaid dancer
• Being at Jack’s house with his sisters and learning that he loved Mulan and the Aristocats.
• Huns.
• Sitting in the back of the truck and realizing that was the most fun thing to do in Idaho (I’m kidding though, Idaho is great)
• Holocaust references 
• Racist references all around
• Dat’s gonnnn be ESPENSIVE.
• Ya’ll have the same last name? That’s lucky.
• Just Tyson and his black woman impressions in general
• Disney and Harry Potter Scene It (Snitch, please)
• Jack/Rachel/Dylan’s AMAZING families
• Sleeping in Rachel’s huge bed.
• Crepe Saturday morning
• Laying outside in the sun.
• Billy’s mom and laughing way too hard at her house
• Getting attacked on the trampoline
• It’s just a number…
• Pulled pork sandwiches
• Table Rock and the AMAZING sunset
• The Newlywed Game (Jack, we rocked it)
• Dinosaur language
• Dylan’s wonderful talk
• Kurtis being free out the back of the truck
• Screaming girly songs all the way home
• Tyson singing London Bridge
• Flying down the freeway being sad that we had to say goodbye

So there’s a long post to come about being reunited with my dear friends and having a blast in Idaho, the land of the potato and Oreo cookies. Don’t worry, it’s coming and you will love it!;) I just have a few thoughts to get out right now and I want to do it before I forget them!

I feel like this a little bit

And I feel like this

So these are kind of conflicting themes….kind of how life is going. I have some people telling me that this is probably where my life is headed, and other people telling me that my life is headed in the opposite way. But it doesn’t really matter what other people think or what they experienced or how the pattern goes. I’m doing what I am supposed to, what makes me happy, and what I feel is right. End of story.

So that’s all. Don’t worry, the huge post about my mini-vacation is coming. Happy Saturday everyone!

My cute roommate Heidi is leaving on her mission tomorrow. She is going to knock the socks off those Frenchies. They won’t even know what hit them. I am so proud of her and I am so lucky that I got to be her roommate for the past 9 months. I feel like I know Heidi really well, and I am so grateful for all the things we shared. She has been there for me in times good and times bad, and I will always be so thankful that I got to roll over and see her beautiful face in the mornings. Heidi is amazing, she has a beautiful testimony and loves helping people. That’s why she’s going to be an amazing missionary.

So Heidi thanks for all the times in productions, for being a great older sister, for being an amazing bedmate, for the jokes and the laughs and the tears, for venting to each other and our weekends sitting in our room just messing around. I will miss you so much but I am so excited for you and this awesome adventure!

This is us really…

I love her.

I love you Sister Francis! Go and preach 🙂

Happy Tuesday everyone!

So I’m really behind! And I don’t even have time for news today….I’m so sorry!!! I promise I’ll get back on schedule this week!

So here’s a game of catch-up saying what’s been going on lately.

Friday I went and saw The Great Gatsby with some friends. To say it was phenomenal would be an understatement. It was incredible, not exactly like the book, but still very true to the story. I could go on and on about it, but I won’t. Just know that it was amazing and you should go see it!

Saturday I spent the whole day with my family at Thanksgiving Point for a special Mother’s Day outing for my cute mom. It was so much fun! I loved getting to run around acting like kids with my family. They are so awesome and it was so much fun to spend the whole day together!

Sunday was Mother’s Day. So before I go further here’s a shout out to my mom. My mom is fantastic. She is smart, talented, beautiful, and finds time in her busy day to make sure our house always runs smoothly. She’s a personal cheerleader, psychiatrist, and most importantly she’s one of my best friends. I love my mom so much and everything that I am I owe to her. So you may all think you have the best mom, but I can assure you that MY mom is the very best! I love you mom and I hope you had a wonderful day!

The rest of my Mother’s Day was farewells, which were awesome, spending time with my cousins and grandparents, and a very special phone call.

Elder Low is doing AWESOME and it was so great to get to hear his voice and talk to him a little bit. He’s still himself, making me laugh every minute, but he’s different too. He was so compassionate before, and now he’s even more compassionate. You can tell how he feels about the people in Japan and how much he loves the gospel. He was awesome before he left, and I can tell he’s just getting better and better every day. So thanks to the Low family for letting me be there to chat with him, and a special thanks to my favorite missionary for making me a very happy girl:)

Happy Monday Everyone, and happy 13th!

Sometimes you don’t realize someone’s been offended. Sometimes you don’t realize that people didn’t like what you said or how you said it. Sometimes, you got over a fight and you never knew that someone else didn’t.

I got quite the wake-up call last night. So for anyone that I’ve offended or upset in any way, I am really, truly, sorry. I’d like to think there aren’t many people out there thinking ill of me. And if you do, please know that I’m sorry and I would love to fix it. I’m human, but I’m going to keep trying to be a better one.

That’s enough groveling from me today! Happy Sunday everyone.

I said goodbye to my friends today (for real) and now I’m officially home.

It’s nice to be home!

And I miss BYU.

It’s an interesting mix of feelings. Right now I don’t have a minute to blog about my trip or all of the other things I want to blog about. So forgive me! But starting tomorrow, trust me. There will be lots of blog posts since all I’m doing this summer is working, reading, spending time with my family, and you’ve got it…blogging.

On the spiritual note, Dillon gave a fabulous farewell talk today about the restoration and how important that is to the people we are today. He talked about things we can learn from the restoration and apply to our lives. He’s going to be an amazing missionary folks. Those people in Texas are lucky to get one of my best friends for two years. I love you Dil!

Happy Sunday everyone!

Hey Saint George. After 9 months of nearly straight school, you’re looking mighty nice. And it’s even better that I get to be here with my best friends.

Coming up on the agenda of my life; vacation in Saint George, go home and be with my family, say bye to everyone for real on Sunday at Dillon’s farewell, then a summer full of working, my family, and lots of reading.

Welcome to life after college.

So this is the last goodbye. Goodbye to BYU, freshman year. It’s been an incredible 9 months, and I have made so many memories that I will never let go of.

I can’t even begin to document the things I’ve learned or the memories I have, so suffice it to say that BYU freshman year was one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I’m currently in Saint George with my four best friends and don’t have time to be all nostalgic about BYU at the moment.

So let’s just stop dragging it out and do this.

Goodbye BYU. Goodbye freshman year. Goodbye to all the things I learned (which will be shared in a later post for my high school friends moving on to college, don’t you worry;)) Goodbye to all the mistakes I made and the things that I finally got right. Goodbye to the first time for so many things and the last time for so many things.

See you in four months BYU, I’ll be missing you.

On a separate note, I’m currently in Saint George with those four girls who make everything great. Get excited for some great adventures!