Dear Future Self (approximately one year in the future to be exact):
It’l be worth it, all this time
January 9, 2013.
It was one year ago today that I said goodbye to my best friend. There aren’t words to explain that day, and most of me doesn’t want to relive it.
As hard as this past year has been, it has been good. So very good. I have spent the past year learning, laughing, crying, dating, playing, working, exploring, missing, supporting, helping, and mostly growing. I know more about myself know than I did a year ago. And I think it’s safe to say that Elder Low does too. I can’t say what this next year will bring, but I do know that there’s a boy in Japan who means the world to me, and that he’s doing so many good things there.
People ask me if I regret anything, and the answer is no. Every choice has lead me here, and I’m happy and so is he. People ask me if I would do things differently. I think there are some things I wish were different, but nothing really that I have control over.
Everything happens for a reason. I tell myself that every single day. And I have already found a million reasons why this trial has been a blessing. Not seeing or even really talking to your best friend for 2 years is hard. But in the past year I think I’ve grasped a little more the good things that come.
People are going to form their own opinions, and I can’t do anything about that. I know that I’m happy, Randy is happy, and the past year has been good to both of us. I’m sure this next year will be too.
I don’t know what the future holds. I won’t pretend that I do. I just know that I know Randy will continue to be an awesome missionary, and I’ll continue living my life and loving it.
Maybe in a year we’ll be back to doing Chili’s runs, back to singing while you play the guitar, back to me asking you what outfit to wear, back to you taking out the trash while I cook you dinner, back to parking lot dancing, screaming our favorite songs in the car, frozen hot chocolates, and endless scheming, back to goodnight texts instead of letters, back to calls in between classes, back to long walks, back to shopping, seeing shows, eating dinner, and just enjoying time together. I sure hope so.
Happy 1 year down Elder Low. I couldn’t be more proud of you!
Reflections
Tonight I’m reflecting. You’ll find out why tomorrow.
School is going so well! It’s hard, but I really like it. I’m delving into broadcasting and it’s everything I wanted it to be.
I have an interview to be an EFY Counselor tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Also, I find I’m not a very nice person when I don’t get enough sleep. So I’ll be working on that.
I also have time to read. It’s blessed. I don’t expect it to last, but for this moment, novels are my good night kiss.
Friends and family
Today, one of my best friends bore his testimony in Church about friendships. He talked about the friends he was seeing for the first time in years, the ones he left when coming to Utah, and the new friends he’s made here. He talked about how they are like family to him. I, being the cry baby I am, started bawling.
I love my family and I miss them when I’m gone.
But it is so nice to have a Provo family here. People I can rely on to be there for me, to listen to me when I’m upset, to help me whenever I need it, to laugh with me and cry with me, everything. I love where I live and I am so lucky that I decided to move in here. I’m so lucky that I took the classes that I did, that I’ve made the friends that I have, and that those friends have become my family.
Vague prose
Hello there friends!
2k14
It’s 2014. How weird is that?? I remember last New Year’s perfectly. It doesn’t feel like it was that long ago.
So to celebrate the new year, here is a moment from each month of 2013. These will be good, promise:)
January I said goodbye to my best friend. It was a really hard month, but getting those first few letters was the best!
Cards and candy bets
Family time rocks. As you can see.
This break has been so fun and full of games and food and movies and more fun. Now I have a few more days of relaxing and then back to reality.
So this is Christmas, I hope you had fun…
I didn’t take enough pictures this Christmas. I think I was just trying to live in the moment instead of snap a million photos. Which is ok too, I think. Luckily I have just a few to show you what Christmas in my house is like!
First of all, there was Christmas Eve. Which was full of games and movies with Drew, food and family, singing Christmas carols in candle light, opening a wonderful new book, an email from my favorite missionary full of the sweetest things, and a package from him too (he still knows how to shop for me!) and finally, having a good spiritual moment with my family before Santa came.
Then Christmas morning was full of tears as my dad read his favorite Christmas book, matching Nativity sets, laughing and yelling as presents were opened, hot chocolate and candy, and of course the Stocking Exchange. Basically I love my family and this time of year, and the chance we get to spend it together.
And happy Friday everyone!
Eve of the Eve
It’s Christmas Eve Eve. I try to be funny sometimes.
Published
http://howtobearedhead.com/redheads-how-to-wear-classic-christmas-colors-this-holiday-season/
Check this out.
XOXO I’m driving home today and packing and I have a million things to do. I’ll write a nice long post tomorrow.
Happy Friday everyone!












































