This month was just not the month for me to do a daily gratitude post on the blog!
I have a confession. The past few months have been incredibly hard for me. It’s been hard to find things to be grateful for. It’s been easier to feel overwhelmed and horribly sad. It’s been easier to stop looking so closely at my life to find the happy things, because when I looked too close I saw so many things I disliked. It was easier to just get through the day then try and have a good day.
There’s lots of things about the past few months I don’t need to get into detail about.
But I do need to say that finding things to be grateful for in every day has made the days better.
I have so many things to be grateful for.
For notes from the kindest friends, to phone calls from family who love me, gorgeous sunsets, the new Gilmore Girls reboot that has made me excited, youth in church who make me laugh and make me feel cooler than I am, people who listened to the Spirit and said the exact things I needed to hear when they had no idea what was going on with me, a Savior who has let me know time and time again that I am not alone, Huffington Post articles that help me realize I’m not alone in my feelings, kind emails and comments that made me realize my writing mattered to someone, music, plays, ballet, long drives and hikes, photography, candy, pasta, warm blankets, fall candles, new books, movie dates, and of course Randy. I can’t write about him right now or I will burst into a thousand tears. So I’ll just have to wait on that.
But really, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Hard things happen, and as one of my favorite actors puts it, “Life is crunchy and complicated, and all the more delicious.”
I’m learning to savor the crunchy and complicated.
My friends just be careful. Be careful with people’s hearts. I have made this confession to people in person and they have told me they are shocked that things have been so rough lately. It has been such an eye-opener for me that we truly never know what someone is going through. So if I snapped at you more than usual or didn’t reply or help as much as I should have, I’m so sorry. Thank you to those that love me through it. I’m certainly going to be more careful with people, because who knows what they are dealing with and how they are hurting.
Anyway, rant over. Basically just know that I’m feeling all the gratitude lately.