I’m happy. Really, genuinely happy. And I want to tell you why.

So a few days ago my phone goes KAPUT and I am left with basically a “brand new phone” in my old phone. AKA no numbers, no saved texts, nothing. I was a leetle streeesed. And then Hailee comes over. And gives me a beautiful picture of Christ and this note that makes me cry. She didn’t know how much stress I was feeling and how much I appreciate that note and picture. Hailee is one of those people I can talk about the gospel with all the time, and I love that. She’s the kind of person I want to be. I don’t tell her anywhere near enough, but she’s the steady friend I lean on, probably too much. She’s like a tree basically. That I lean on, frequently.

Then Randy comes over and we dye Easter eggs with my family and he sits there and listens while I vent about my phone and cry haha. Then we go off the next day to our day activity. This kid picks me up early so we can go to the Gateway and fix my phone, walks around with me while I buy prom acessories and is just as happy as I am when my phone is fixed and the nice man gives us a validation for parking. Great start to a great day. We go to Thanksgiving Point and go to the petting zoo before it closes. We feed horses and goats and pet cows, and he doesn’t even complain even though it’s not his cup of tea persay. Then off to get a brownie sundae because I can’t control certain chocolate cravings I have. Then everyone else arrives and we have a blast riding golf carts through the beautiful gardens and going through the dino museum. And Bandy laughs when I laugh, runs around like an idiot when I do, builds stupid dams and dinosaurs with me. Then I have this urge to go to IKEA, so we do. And act out the scene from 500 days of summer (MINUS RACE YOU TO THE BEDROOM…sketch.) Then walk around in City Creek, get dinner, SEE HAILEY HAUGEN AND BRAD DEVINE. I had a minor spaz attack and Bandy was patient through it 🙂 I make him walk through Tiffany’s with me and then he takes me home. He’s a gem. Really though. A gem.

I have really great friends. These are just two examples of them. There’s also Em who never fails to make me smile, Ash who always wants to do stupid things with me, Morgan Miller who never fails to invite me to things even when I say I can’t go most of the time, Kira who is my little sister 🙂 just a lot of people like that who I love.

Lastly. It’s Easter. I love Easter so much. The Atonement has come to have such a big meaning on my life, I am so thankful for Christ and his willingness to LIVE and die for me. I know that this gospel is real. I would be so selfish to not share my knowledge of it. It is truly the greatest thing that has ever happened in my life. I am glad my family strives to live the gospel, and I am glad my friends do too. I love having people who truly have Christ’s image in their countenances all around me. I love the Lord and will ever be indebted to him. So on this Easter day I hope everyone remembers their Savior everyday, but especially today.

So I just watched 500 days of summer and I think I’m going to march right back downstairs after this blogpost and watch it again. It was so good. It’s sad and kinda dirty in some parts, but good good good. The overarching theme of the whole thing is that there is such a thing as love and “meant to be” and all that good stuff. Even if you can’t see it from where you’re sitting right now. And I love that, because “everything happens for a reason” has kinda been my life motto lately. People come in and out of your life for a reason. Some people stay. For a reason.

In some ways I wish I had the day to day log of what happened between the important people in my life. But it’s ok that I don’t, it would’ve taken too long anyway.

The concept of that movie is brilliant. Jumping around from day to day until the show pieces itself together.

Anywho.

Life is short. And life is long.

And it’s wonderful.

I love General Conference. This year it was harder to listen because on Saturday we had family over for my brother’s engagement party and such, but I still want to highlight a few of my very favorite talks that I did get to listen to.

Elder Scott. Wow. He’s a powerful speaker who I used to dread listening to because he has a soothing voice that would lull me to sleep. His talk on being ready to recieve revelation was so great and I loved it.

Elder Holland. I can’t say enough how much I love this man. He always seems to be able to say what I want to hear. There is nothing you have done that cannot be undone.

President Eyring. Trials come. And I am so glad that he gave a talk on how to handle trials, so that when I am in a hard situation, I can overcome it.

President Utchdorf. He knows how to speak, let me tell you. STOP IT. There isn’t too much contention in my home, but it’s good to hear those words of wisdom.

Elder Baxter. I hadn’t ever heard of him before, but his talk on single families made my heart hurt. One of my old YW leaders is going through the single-parenting stretch right now and hearing this talk made me so happy. I know it was what she was probably praying to hear.

There were a lot of others I loved, but mostly I love President Monson. He always has this calming, fun, wonderful spirit that makes me smile. His talks about the church and the gospel and knowing it’s true were wonderful. I just love General Conference.

On a seperate note, I love my family. They’re crazy and annoying at times, like any family, but we love each other and it shows. We’re always looking out for each other and finding ways to help every person in our family. Families are forever and I’m glad I’m a part of the family that I am.

Churchy for a minute here. I just had conference in general ok?? DO NOT JUDGE.

I just love church. And I am so excited for General Conference. It will be so great! 🙂 So one time I gave a talk on the Atonement and it made me cry my little eyes out. But in a good way. I just love the happiness I get from church things. Like everybody I struggled with it for a while sophomore and junior year. It took me really wanting to have a relationship with Christ and doing everything I possibly could to have one to get back on track. I’m not saying I’m perfect, because I surely am NOT. I’m just saying that it makes things easier. And life is already hard enough, it’s nice to have something to make it a little bit better.

Sorry for the religious detour. But it’s a good thing right 🙂

Days where you get into your car, and the steering wheel is already warm.
Going outside to read a book.
Chocolate easter eggs.
A book that makes you jump up and down while covering your mouth to not let out a scream.
Getting your homework done in a lot less time than you thought.
Seeing someone you haven’t seen in a while.
Not being eaten by a velociraptor.
When you put your Ipod on shuffle and it plays your favorite songs all in a row.
Coming home to a quiet house.
Going to church.
Getting a phone call from someone you love.
Laughing when you aren’t sure what’s funny.
Not caring what you look like, and having someone tell you that you look good.
Reading a scripture that grabs your attention.
Getting a text that makes you smile.
Watching a documentary about turtles, and rooting for this little tiny turtle to make it.
Getting ready faster than you thought, and getting to go back to sleep for a few minutes.
Gossip about good things that are going on in people’s lives.
Having a busy day full of things you don’t mind doing.
Going to school and knowing nothing is due in any classes.
Taking a minute to just do nothing.
Planning a trip to the temple.
Knowing what you believe and stand for.
Life.
A choice. Completely 100% a choice. So choose it. It’s nice 🙂

I love the sun.

Basically this warm weather makes me SUPER HAPPY.

SUPER DUPER HAPPY.

It makes me want to sing. And I do. I sing Down By The Bay and Mr. Sun, Sun, Mr. Golden Sun, and Carry On My Wayward Son….and other things too.

Life is too short to be anything but happy.

I think I stole that quote from someone. Not sure who. But anywho.

I love the sun. 🙂

So my best friend gave me the Parachute album the other day. It is safe to say I haven’t listened to anything else since that time.

There are some sad and happy songs. All la-de-da. But some of them really have quite a deep meaning.

So here’s what I’ve been thinking about.

I have a best friend who is such a good friend. She is so much better than I can ever hope to be. She inspires, devotes, hopes, loves, and a million other words that I can’t think of to describe her. Basically she’s made me not afraid to be me. I found out that being ME is ok, because she makes ME feel like a million bucks.

I have a best friend who maybe doesn’t need me as much as she pretends she does, because she knows I like to give advice. She’s crazy and fun and doesn’t hesitate to jump into a party. She knows what to say and when to say it, but behind closed doors she says whatever she wants.

I have a best friend who is insane, not really, but almost. She plays hard and works hard, knows she can vent to me about anything, and loves to be the center of attention, in a good way. She knows what she believes and sometimes plays a rebel, but everyone knows who she really is. She’s a sweet, caring, mother-hen person who knows how to fix things.

I have a best friend who literally makes my heart stop. He’s probably one of the best people to come into my life. He listens when he probably doesn’t care, he gives advice when he probably doesn’t care, he looks out for me, and never lets what I’ve done ruin who I am. He never fails to tell me every single day what I mean to him, and it means more than anyone will ever know. Who knows what’s going to happen between us, but I can say I will love him forever and always, regardless of how things turn out. Because of what he’s given me. Because of who he is.

I will love all of these people forever and always. We’ll go our seperate ways. But that doesn’t matter.

One time, we got kicked out of the Sadie Hawkin’s dance. And no, I do not mean just my group.

I mean the whole school. Got kicked out. Every single person.

It was funny/lame.

But it was still a fun dance.

It was my last girls choice dance. Which is sad to think about.

I’m not sure I’m ready to go to college and live on my own and have to be resourceful.

Oh well. 🙂

Sooooooo this post should have happened yesterday. Oh well…:)

Chocolate frosty, the Scarlet Pimpernell, one full moon, game nights, guessing games, asking me to Homecoming, visits at Cherry Hill, first kiss, Orange Leaf, Musical Productions, my birthday, football games, Scary Hill, Homecoming, Fiddler on the Roof, Ihop, couple creeping, ice skating, Christmas, One Acts, Revue, The Vow, Valentine’s Day, birthday!, leap day, spring time, shopping…..and a million other things that have made this senior year incredible.

Now here is one for my dear friend.

Going to lunch, shotgun, symphony……..

the end.

Sometimes I’m not very good to people. And sometimes, people who I thought would always, always be good to me, aren’t. I should apologize for not always being a bright ray of sunshine. I am working on being more patient, and I’m really sorry for when I’m not. But seriously? Some people need to recognize that being right is NOT more important than relationships, myself included.

Here’s a story to illustrate my point.

Once upon a time there was a lady bug. She had six spots. She had a friend lady bug who couldn’t see very well. One day this friend told the lady bug her seven spots were beautiful. The ladybug was livid. She clearly had SIX SPOTS. She told the blind ladybug so.

“Wow really? I have six spots ya dork.”

The blind ladybug was very hurt, and carefully said, “I’m sorry, I see seven.”

“Well, you’re wrong.” The ladybug said as she stalked away.

The blind ladybug walked sadly away, not knowing what she could have done differently, and knowing for sure that they wouldn’t be friends for much longer.

And then she went on to become the president of the Ladybug States. And the mean ladybug felt really bad about it.

That’s how I feel.