I finally asked you to dance
On the last slow song
And beneath the moon that was really a disco ball
I can still feel my head on your shoulder
Hoping that song would never be over

I haven’t seen you in ages
Sometimes I find myself
Wondering where you are
For me you’ll always be 18
And beautiful and dancing away with my heart

I brushed your curls back so I could see your eyes
And the way you moved me was like you were in my mind
I can still feel you lean into kiss me
I can’t help but wonder if you ever miss me

I haven’t seen you in ages
Sometimes I find myself
Wondering where you are
For me you’ll always be 18
And beautiful and dancing away with my heart

Oh you headed out to college
At the end of that summer when we lost touch
I guess I didn’t realize even at that moment
We lost so much.

I haven’t seen you in ages
Sometimes I find myself
Wondering where you are
For me you’ll always be 18
And beautiful and dancing away with my heart
Nah nah nah
Nah nah nah
Nah nah nah
Away with My Heart

Homecoming. It was perfect. There isn’t another word to describe it. The week leading up to Homecoming was kind of shakey, but Thursday started the flip to the great weekend that it was. The parade was awesome and some hot chocolate after was great 🙂 Then a crazy fun football game…getting some…hot chocolate…and relay races at Classic…great night:) The day of Homecoming was LONG because I was so ready to go!!! Randy came, looking awesome and bringing some GOREGOUS flowers. Then we went and took pictures, got mocked for “engagement’s” or something…then off to dinner where some…unexpected people were. Had tons of fun talking to the waitress and singing happy birthday….off to dancing the night away with all of my really good friends, bringing back the “corner,” then back to sweats and falling asleep while watching How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days, and the car ride home, then falling asleep with music still swirling in my head. It was perfect. Perfect. Perfect. Perfect. I really think we are better together:)

So I am SO SO SO SO excited for Homecoming!!!! It’s going to be fabulous 🙂 We have a huge group that includes my two best friends, I’m going with my other best friend 🙂 And it’s going to be perfect:) I have the perfect dress, have no idea how I’m doing my hair though. Tonight we’re going to classic skating 🙂 And it’s going to be spectacular 🙂 AHH I am so excited 🙂

College day was yesterday. I’m so NOT ready to go to college, let alone think about it. I’ve basically had my college choice figured out since I was two years old. My career choice, since ninth grade. But going to all those colleges really made me wonder if I’m making the right decision. What do I really know anyway? Am I really at a point where I can make such a huge decision?

It’s probably fine.

Anyway…this year has made me realize who’s going to be there for me and, frankly, who isn’t. People are all fake, whether they want to admit it or not, to some level, they’re fake. But the people who take off layers of fakeness for you are the people you want to be around. And I’ve found people who I’m not afraid to be more myself around. And that, is worth everything.

“The hardest thing isn’t being lied to, it’s knowing you weren’t worth the truth.”

I’m too emotional, too passionate, too intense. And I’m not going to apologize for that. I am who I am. I shouldn’t probably care about all of this as much as I do. But I do care. I thought you told me everything. But you don’t. I thought you were someone I could count on when everything else was crashing down. But I found out differently the other night. And it shouldn’t kill me, but it does. And the saddest part is, I don’t think you even care. Because it’s just another thing you have to deal with. So I’m sorry for being mad, but then again, I’m not.